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Finally Saying YES & Running Full Speed into My Dream Life

By May 30, 2018 11 Comments

I remember the exact moment it hit me, took my breath away and left me writhing in my own anger.

I was in La Jolla, CA just over a year ago on a girls trip with my mom. I was looking out over the ocean and the swimmers coming in. There’s a 1/2 mile loop they do out and back.
I had done it a few years prior.

As I was looking on, I heard a thought go through my head.
By “heard” a thought, I’m talking about the moment a thought that runs our lives becomes evident to us – no longer just running in the subconscious but now available for conscious review.

The thought was “I would never go swim that, it’s too cold. Too dangerous. Too far.”

C A P O W – ARROW RIGHT TO THE HEART. Wind knocked out. Gut punched.
“Oh fuck’s” then ensued.

In that moment it struck me, this, right here, is how people AGE. GET OLD. STOP LIVING. They decide everything is just TOO for them. They start narrowing their worlds little by little. At first, it’s in ways that are completely socially acceptable, so no one is really around to call it out. Plus, it makes the majority of people in their life feel safer because they’re not pushing the limits. It’s RARE to hear someone say, “HEY, I noticed you just aren’t as extreme as you used to be or, you don’t push the edges like you used to… maybe you should start again.” HA.

It struck me how intensely a whole bunch of bullshit was running my life, that I was apparently unaware of, and that had taken over my SPARKLE for living.

It was in that moment I realized how hard I had tried.

Throwing It Back to Where the Descent into Mediocrity Started …

I arrived back in Arizona in 2012 after moving and traveling all over the country, meeting the coolest people, doing the coolest things and really LIVING according to my standards.
I came back to be in AZ for the end of my Grandmas life and spend time with family.

I did that.
And being with them was wonderful.

But… somewhere along the way, I also relentlessly, fiercely and with the most commitment to anything… ever… pursued mediocrity.
(OF COURSE WITHOUT REALLY NOTICING. DOES ANYONE ACTIVELY PURSUE MEDIOCRITY ON PURPOSE? If you do, please stop reading this – it will freak you out.)

I had this soul screaming, do-it-now desire to hit the road again.

To lead my companies from the road.

Adventure.

Travel.

Meet people.

Embrace nature as my church.

Host INPowered events that help people break wide open, strip the layers and return to their souls truth.

Let instinct, intuition & perfect timing be my compass.

And continue to TRUST that I am, in every way – for better or otherwise, the architect of my life.

BUT. I couldn’t. I was supposed to be figuring out how to be an adult. I was supposed to be figuring out how to get it right.
That’s what your 20’s are for, right?

So, I rented luxury apartments and set up shop.
I left said apartments and moved in with family.
Then, back to apartments…

I got into a relationship where we did all the “adult things.”
We built a business, adopted a puppy and lived together.

I tried all of the things I could possibly think of to silence my souls calling – which I chalked up to crazy talk, anyway.
(The same root cause that started chalking up soul talk to crazy talk is the SAME place thoughts about those ocean swimmers came from. Rooted strongly in mediocrity & fear.)

Stuff worked. Businesses, nonprofits & projects took off.
But somehow, every single time… I pulled the plug RIGHT when they were starting to take off.
It was SO hard to share fun pictures and write about this & that because it was no longer authentic.

It didn’t matter if I was living someone else’s version of a DREAM life… I wasn’t living mine.

 

 

So, what happened that California Day…

…wasn’t magic & didn’t immediately change my life.
I didn’t come home and pack up my life and transform everything.
I didn’t because I had done just that so many times in the past. The second something felt right, I leapt and it ALWAYS worked out… ALWAYS.
BUT… that wasn’t the adult thing to do. Right?
Somehow, I took my empirical knowledge (of which I was incredibly in touch with) and threw it out with the dirty water only to trust a whole bunch of other advice and things that really made no sense for my life.

When I got home from that trip, I dug my heels in deeper.
Partnered with some amazing doctors and built a lifestyle company.
Started this, that and the other thing.
Helped brand and build other people’s companies.

I learned so much. So much about what I did shaped me. I love each person I’ve worked with dearly.
This has nothing to do with any one person or experience.

Every time the dream came up again, I shoved it down…
Thought about renting an office space and paying for a year up front. (Insert WTF.)

You know… heels. Dig. Repeat.

 

But then, everything broke loose and holding back was no longer an option, NOT living this dream was no longer something I was available for…

At some point around March of this year (2018), something in me woke up.
After an accountability meeting with my amazing partners I called one of them and said “I’m leaving and going to Colorado for the summer. I made myself a promise I would never hang in AZ for another summer. It’s too hot and I’m way too uninspired. Plus, I’m not even sort of living my dream life and that’s what I teach… YOU CAN HAVE, FEEL, EXPERIENCE AND BE WHATEVER YOU WANT. YOU ARE THE ARCHITECT OF YOUR LIFE. I used to live like this and it’s too painful not to trust the magic anymore.”

He casually said, “Yeah, well, I’ve always thought you should put adventure, outdoors and travel first – business and everything else second.”

Silence. Gulp.
I may have partially expected him to talk me out of it.

“DUDE. You should have told me you were peering into my soul like, uh, MONTHS ago.”

“Yeah, I didn’t want to seem like I didn’t think your businesses were important.”

That was the moment.

I decided. I’m leaving for the summer. I’ll move to Colorado.
I bought a new car (RAV4… instead of the Corolla I had before) & a new road bike.

Two weeks later, I had the worst pit in my stomach.

Not. The. Right. Choice. Terra. 

CRAP.

Go to Bozeman, MT. 

WHAT?

Yes.

OKAY.

(Yes, this was my internal dialogue… :-D)

The plan was then Montana.

Until…

Not. The. Right. Choice. to. Find. A Permanent. Place. Yet. Terra. 

CRAP. WHAT?

Just trust. Trust in your perfect timing. Trust that where you end up will be so much better than anything you can dream up at this current time.
Trust it’s going to be SO much easier to hit the road and do business from anywhere than you imagined.

Trust that everyone is going to show up bigger than you expected.

OKAY.

With That, I Would Like to Welcome You to My Perfectly Timed “Finding Wild” Summer…

I’ve trusted.
Every move. Every feeling. Every nudge back into FULL soul alignment.

MY LIFE:

  • Almost everything I own is now in storage.
  • I have one bag of “business stuff” in the back of my car and the rest is run on my computer & phone, with my teams & from anywhere I want.
  • I have gear for diving, kayaking, mountain biking, road riding, rock climbing, backpacking, camping, yoga and running.
  • I have clothes & shoes & blankets for anything I may need…
  • I meditate daily & journal my reality – ALWAYS.

AND THAT’S THAT… I have launched myself full speed into my location independent, soulful multi-time entrepreneur, heart & mission driven, adventurous, adrenaline rush, edge & boundary pushing, doggie mom perfectly timed life…

To lead my companies from the road.

Adventure…

Travel…

Meet the coolest, highest vibe, brilliant people…

Embrace nature as my church…

Host INPowered events that help people break wide open, strip the layers and return to their souls truth…

Let instinct, intuition & perfect timing be my compass…

And continue to TRUST that I am, in every way – for better or otherwise, the architect of my life.

Today is only Day 4 & I plan to SHARE IT ALL on Instagram, Here on the Blog & on Facebook (both personal & professional pages)…
It’s the first day I’ve been able to wrap myself around the palpable experience of this dream becoming my reality.

We’re just getting started…

… AND? I suggest it’s damn time you do too with THAT dream in your heart.

RUN FOR IT,

Terra Rose

P.S. Mediocrity to me is living a life that feels dull, lifeless and out of alignment with your SOUL. It’s not supposed to look like mine, and inferring that anything mentioned above is inherently mediocre, it’s NOT… IF it’s exactly what you’ve dreamed up and WANT. Cool?

Today’s Adventure

A jaunt from Mancos, CO where I’m currently staying up the pass through Durango to Silverton.
This stop was a short hike to Molas Lake between Durango & Silverton.

Today’s Work Station

We went for a walk & are hanging out at “Coffee Bear” in Silverton, CO staring at Kindle Mountain. I ran a 1/2 marathon up it once.
Truth be told, I was pretty nervous about hitting the road with Cairee (my dog in these photos) and figuring out how to make work happen, keep her happy & live life on the road with a dog.

On Day 1 … people have been super friendly letting her IN to the coffee shop (😇) to lay on the floor, watching her while I had to go to the bathroom and she’s totally chilled out napping.

On the docket for work today are a multitude of videos, preparation for the launch of a BRAND NEW project (I can’t wait to share), and a huge announcement for The Brilliance Way.

TRG

Author TRG

Terra began climbing bookshelves before she could walk and spent many of her young days planting & growing sunflowers. She has an insatiable hunger for adventure and a deep desire for all beings to know peace & true freedom. Today, she runs several social enterprise companies, teaches entrepreneurship, speaks all over the country and writes about how to create a conscious life that brings unlimited joy and ultimate freedom. She would love to hear from you. Come on over & connect with her on social.

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Join the discussion 11 Comments

  • Rita Bergstedt says:

    wow, Terra! good for you. How about a side trip to Duluth? Boundary Waters?

    • TRG says:

      Thank you so much Rita! I would LOVE to come to Duluth and do the Boundary Waters! I will send you a FB message!! Thank you so much for the idea!

  • Tara Holgate says:

    Terra – You are BRILLIANT and boldly COURAGEOUS! I wish you safe travels for you & Cairee! There is an app called Strava where you can send a family member, or a friend, notification when you are hiking, riding, or running. Might be a good idea, if you’re on your own. If you make your way to Southern California, let me know! Xoxo 💋

    • TRG says:

      Thank you so much! I love the Strava app, but I did not realize that you could alert someone in REAL TIME that you were out and about. I will absolutely look in to that. Thank you!! I will certainly let you know if I make it down that way. BIG LOVE!

  • Terry says:

    That’s my girl! Blessings and joy for an amazing journey! Cai looks good, and I bet so happy to be in the mountains !
    So glad Tara mentioned that app! Great 👍!

  • Tracy True says:

    Hi Terra!

    When I started reading you, my brain lit up! I lit up! I couldn’t help but thinking, “if someone like Terra, Terra who has always seemed so self-aware, finds herself living, AND STAYING, in a place that is not her authentic self, then, I’m not the only one!

    I so relate to everything! Especially the
    “Adult” bullshit. What is “adult”? It’s a fucking word someone made up to put people in a little box that eventually sucks the life right out of you.

    I’m excited to go along with you on your journey and to begin working on mine!

    Much Love and Adventure!

    Tracy True

    • TRG says:

      Thank you Tracy! It’s absolutely true. It’s so easy for us to get wrapped up in the structure that was set forth for us… you are definitely not alone! I look forward to having you on this journey with me!

  • YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! I am in full support and so happy to read this! Xxo, ~ Chrystal aka FireHeart

  • Norman says:

    You have been blessed with amazing beauty, a brilliant mind and mature soul. What you have done, are doing, appears to be an audacious move to most of us, but I feel it’s not bold at all for you because you are in touch with YOU and it works because you are the architect. You are inspiring- thank you for being you and sharing!

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